When I was 20

When I was 20 my father collapsed at home and paramedics rush him to the hospital. This was when CAT scans were brand new and we were lucky there was one in the city we lived in then. Well, not so much lucky as we got the bad news a lot faster and with more detail then we ever, ever wanted. Yes he had an tumor. Close to the cerebellum.

The doctors gave us a real long shot that it could be removed and being in shock and weak from crying we told mom we were willing to let them try. She choose to try.

About 3 hours after he went in the surgeon came out and gave us 2 choices.

Close him up and let it progress, maybe 2-3 weeks at the outside.

Or

Remove as much as he can and effectively give him a lobotomy.

At most he would last a year. Mom choose the second one...

At first he seemed to recover and was able (after a few weeks) go back to the work he loved. As the months went on his function slowly declined. We would get calls from his office that he had walked there naked and was making sales calls. He lost most control, speech about 9 months after. He died about 2 months later, and it was the most painful and sad way to die.

My thoughts for Ted cannot even come close to what I can write.

Yes, this is a late diary but I had to get it off my chest...



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Wow (2.00 / 0)

That is a very sad story.  I hope that you got to spend some quality time with your father before he really lost his ability to function.


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by Fuzzy Dunlop on Thu May 22, 2008 at 12:21:11 AM EST

Re: Wow (2.00 / 4)

we did, he was a big fisherman, and we would go out with his dad too and spend whole days just casting and reeling and telling dirty jokes and just being guys.


by zerosumgame on Thu May 22, 2008 at 12:23:17 AM EST
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Re: Wow (2.00 / 2)

Those are the memories you've got to hang on to.  I lost my mother from a brain tumor when I was four, and I really don't have very many memories of her, at all.  In some respects, that makes it easier to deal with, but I also wish I had more to remember of her.

So I'll envy you the memories, and sympathize with the horrible ordeal this must have been.  

And, of course, we all wish the best for Ted and hope that he's luckier than some have been.


No way. No how. No McCain.
by freedom78 on Thu May 22, 2008 at 12:28:46 AM EST
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I'm so sorry about your father. (2.00 / 2)

But thank you for sharing this. And I think a lot of us have Sen. Kennedy on our minds.


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by sricki on Thu May 22, 2008 at 12:29:09 AM EST

Thank you zerosumgame (2.00 / 2)

Sorry you had to relive the trauma and I hope sharing it has helped some. I saw a doctor being interviewed on TV who frankly stated this type of thing usually has a poor prognosis. My prayers go out to Sen. Kennedy.


by phoenixdreamz on Thu May 22, 2008 at 12:34:59 AM EST

Re: When I was 20 (2.00 / 1)

Thanks for sharing, dude. All most of us (like me) know of you is generally a guy who goes around troll-rating people. But it's things like this that give you depth and make it hard, and nigh on impossible, to dehumanize you as another Clinton diehard, and makes everyone realize you're a real person with real drives, feelings, etc.

My daughter and I will keep you in our prayers.


Serious question- Is This Snark?
by ragekage on Thu May 22, 2008 at 01:01:01 AM EST

Outrageous comment (2.00 / 1)

Amazing that you are so crass that someone can't even share their own personal family sadness without you making up a bunch of bullshit about them. Shameful.


I'm United Methodist. I already have a Messiah.
by KnowVox on Thu May 22, 2008 at 11:40:42 AM EST
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Re: Outrageous comment (2.00 / 1)

please, no, I know what he was trying to say and mojo'ed him. No flame wars right now, please...


by zerosumgame on Thu May 22, 2008 at 11:49:10 AM EST
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Re: Outrageous comment (2.00 / 1)

No flame war intended. I just call bullshit when I see it. The accusation about you is simply untrue.


I'm United Methodist. I already have a Messiah.
by KnowVox on Thu May 22, 2008 at 12:00:46 PM EST
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Re: Outrageous comment (2.00 / 1)

I know but let it go considering the rest of it, dad would probably have invited him fishing or something and you too.


by zerosumgame on Thu May 22, 2008 at 12:08:43 PM EST
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Don't know if you'll see this (none / 0)

but I noticed you removed your recommend from my original comment. It's no biggie, but I just wanted you to know that I rec'd both yours and Know Vox's comments in the exchange you had as a small way to smooth things over. I'm sorry if that offended you. It wasn't my intention.


by phoenixdreamz on Thu May 22, 2008 at 07:36:20 PM EST
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Re: Don't know if you'll see this (2.00 / 1)

no, for some reason my ratings have been pulled, so heres a phantom one...


by zerosumgame on Thu May 22, 2008 at 09:39:29 PM EST
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Geeze, how strange (none / 0)

You know, I had to write Todd Beeton about something today and he replied in a very friendly and prompt manner. Why don't you try writing him? At the bottom of this page you'll see a 'Contact Us' link. Click on that, and choose him to write to. Good luck.


by phoenixdreamz on Thu May 22, 2008 at 10:19:25 PM EST
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Re: Geeze, how strange (2.00 / 1)

just sent an e-mail off to him, so maybe he will have a chance to look into in before the weekend, but I'm not sweating it, no conspiracy theory...yet LOL!


by zerosumgame on Thu May 22, 2008 at 10:29:09 PM EST
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Thank you for that. (2.00 / 1)

recced


by luckymortal on Thu May 22, 2008 at 01:23:08 AM EST

I understand (2.00 / 4)

I'm sorry your father didn't survive.  My husband was diagnosed with a brain tumor just before we were married.  It was about the size of a soda can and growing on the hearing nerve.  We discovered it when his face became paralyzed.  MRI'S were new then too.  Within a week we were flying across country to Shands Hospital in Florida - to their brand new MRI and teaching hospital.  12 hours of surgery later the tumor was removed.  It wasn't cancerous, and the doctor got all of it (Dr. Rhoton - I still remember him.  He saved my husbands life).

There's still some paralysis and he lost hearing in one ear - but he lived and the tumor didn't grow back (we were told 85% of them did).  The real changes were to his personality, unfortunately.  I ended up married to a stranger.  The brain is a very delicate thing.  I wish Teddy Kennedy well.


by The Fat Lady Sings on Thu May 22, 2008 at 01:33:02 AM EST

Re: I understand (2.00 / 1)

I am so glad to hear he survived, it is one of the scariest things to hear, right up there with cancer. Your body is betraying you in such a deadly and cruel way. I'll toast your family when I get home tonight :)


by zerosumgame on Thu May 22, 2008 at 10:52:43 AM EST
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Re: When I was 20 (2.00 / 1)

This is a heartbreaking story.  I'm very sorry to hear about your father.  As another poster said, the personality changes are incredibly difficult to deal with.  One of my friends just passed away last year from a brain tumor, and between the cancer and the morphine she was a completely different person in the weeks before she passed.

Thanks for sharing your story.


And so, may evil beware and may good dress warmly and eat lots of fresh vegetables.
by thatpurplestuff on Thu May 22, 2008 at 03:30:24 AM EST

Re: When I was 20 (2.00 / 2)

What a heartbreaking tragedy, zerosumgame. It's such a mystery what causes these types of tumors and the damage they inflict. There has to be a way to diagnose and treat them in the formative stage before they become inoperable. We can't give up hope. It's yet another reason why we need a candidate who won't settle for anything less than UNIVERSAL health care, so everyone can obtain the treatment they need and deserve.


I'm United Methodist. I already have a Messiah.
by KnowVox on Thu May 22, 2008 at 11:45:32 AM EST

Sorry for your loss. (none / 0)

I know what a brain tumor can do.

I had a very good friend die of cancer 2 years ago. He fought it bravely as it spread through his entire body and finally to his brain. For the weeks before he passed on, he wasn't the person he used to be and it was painful and gut-wrenching to watch.

I'll admit to having an impression of you not very different from that of ragekage above. It really does help to know the human side of someone that you otherwise have only viewed as an adversary. I hope you've found peace.

Peace.


It is not because I cannot explain that you won't understand. It is because you won't understand that I cannot explain. - Elie Wiesel
by Sumo Vita on Tue Jun 24, 2008 at 08:56:28 PM EST


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